Weird Memories ,the next chapter...

Another chapter came into play in my life,and all seemed well. But as I soon learn,trouble was ahead and nothing me nor at the time God could change. Sometime certain things you tend to feel they need to ignore. Sometimes those simple things are the same things you need to embrace. I don't go too much in to detail because some of whom who reads this may feel offended or even hurt. I wonder how can a parent abandoned their child and feel they need to let them figure it out. Left to defend for themselves,but almost feel as though it was intentional. That child survived and to this day ,that person still may struggle to survive,but that person is strong in their will. From this point how do you forgive a parent who has done this? Do you just accept it and move on or do you live enraged by their actions. Of course I forgave and forgotten for awhile. Anyone who knew me said that I might have been selfish or ungrateful ,but i wasn't. I was hurt beyond the point where it seem almost senseless to love this kinda of person. May they not be well ,but coherent they were. Over the years many have also told me to appreciate this person because life is short,and again this person should have appreciated me instead of being the person who vented out to the world by abandoning their child and feeling almost no remorse regardless if they were well or not but they were coherent to know they were wrong,and far from right. Everyone again says forgive and forget,but sometimes you just don't have the will anymore to forgive. Obviously if these memories have now reappear,well its no mystery that I may never forgive. God knew ahead what life beholds us,why must I be challenge against my own,is my faith worth it.